the difference

twenty six

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 09:18:50 GMT

hey guys sorry i havent posted anything in a while, probably not going to get a chance to any time soon either.
a lot of stuff going on lately. nothing little either. but ill try get back on asap and fill you in.
take care everyone

d.

twloha

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 12:15:07 GMT

twenty five.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 07:10:54 GMT

twenty four.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 07:07:22 GMT

How have everyone's weekend been?
Well mine was crap, but led to something amazing. Breakups suck, sure. But something good always comes from it. Cannot wait to go out tomorrow night. Black Betty's everyone. Then this weekend going to go out and let loose.
I met this amazing boy. My friends told me to stay away, as did his. But we didn't listen and now, i haven't felt this happy in a long time. I know its early, and i don't expect much but god, im having so much fun.
I missed this smitten feeling. I missed flirting and going for something i want.
Guys, I think my life if finally going to get back on track now. Hes going to help me find a proper job and im going to go back to TAFE. Not exactly sure what i will be doing yet but it is something id really like to have under my belt.
Time to grow up.

d.

announcement

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 04:50:54 GMT

twenty three.

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:52:26 GMT

Argh oh my god i am so sick of this!
Girls, its true that all boys are the same. ALL OF THEM. Yes, even the shy, sensitive ones..theyre just too shy and sensitive to make it public!
Every guy just wants sex. I am so sick of meeting new guys and actually thinking to myself wow, hes actually a decent guy whos genuinely into me. WRONG! hes only into my when im single. and for what possible reason could this be?? hmm..
apparently its a game to guys. act all into you and make you feel so good so you start to develop feelings and then hey what do you know, the second you arent single anymore, they stop talking to you. and its not for the reason of being hurt form my going back to my ex. because nothing happened with us in the first place except innocent flirting. anyway, once you arent available to them anymore, they make themselves completely scarce. thus us not being able to think about them because they are ignoring us. hense the kid only wants what he cant have. or something like that.
and stupid old me, im foolish enough to fall for his games and now cant get him off my mind.
how can a stupid boy manage to make two friends into heartache?!
seriously, this boy shit makes absolutely no sense to me, what-so-ever.

any thoughts or theories?

d.

twenty two.

Sun, 31 May 2009 16:42:06 GMT

ive never wanted to die more in my life

special announcement

Sun, 31 May 2009 06:50:41 GMT

Id just like to take a minute to talk about TWLOHA. For those who dont know, TWLOHA stands for To Write Love On Her Arms, which is a non-profit organization finding help for those who are depressed and suffering.
Whilst I have never been diagnosed with depression myself, i have been surrounded by those who have. It is so hard having to watch your friends suffer and not be able to help them. You want to reach out but you dont know how. Not only does TWLOHA help those in suffering, it tells us, the friends, ways we can reach out. Its a great feeling when you turn a friend to TWLOHA and know that its going to help them when you cant.

I get as involved as i can, but as the organization is based in the US, theres only so much i can do. If there is anyone in perth that would be interested in helping out go to www.twloha.com and join the street team and also let me know, I would love to start something in perth.

The first time I read Renee's story i was so touched. its such a familiar story to me because a few of my friends have gone through the same thing. I just think its amazing that her friends were able to create such a huge organization from that situation and not only find the help for Renee but millions of people around the world.

So i think that everyone who cares should get involved. Its an amazing cause and so worth your time.
Whilst we live in perth, there is still things you can do to get involved so go to the site and go check out the street team.

thanks for your time,
d.

twenty one.

Wed, 20 May 2009 19:05:26 GMT

What was with all the metros at Black Betty's tonight??
Seriously.. Could not turn around without bumping into one. Although they made it worth while, with all the fights and all. Especially the girl-guy fight! Epic. People are such dicks when theyre drunk, seriously. Fuck that.
And it's about time Side FX played some new songs! They did quite well too, considering how gone the singer was! He hooked up with at least 5 girls tonight. No joke! And theyre the only ones i saw. Doesnt he have a girlfriend??
They finally played my request too :) Shame they played the wrong song by this particular artist, but im still happy.

I had a great night tonight, how about everyone else?

d.

(Hi J) :)

twenty.

Mon, 18 May 2009 07:06:16 GMT

Favorite Hair Color? BLACK Do Like Long Or Short Hair? LONG Eye Color? BLUE Body Type? SKINNY Taller Or Shorter Than You? TALLER Older or Younger Than You? OLDER Do You Like Your Guys To Wear Pink? I DONT CARE How Do You Feel About Tight Pants? SKINNY JEANS, FINE BY ME. Should Music Be Important To Him? VERY Lighter Skin Or Darker Skin? LIGHTER Do You Like Pretty Boys Or Average Guys? PRETTY BOYS
Hot Or Cute? CUTE What If He Has A Super Stupid Name? I WOULD LAUGH AT HIM Rich Or Average? DONT CARE
Lots Of Friends That Are Girls Or Guys? GUYS

Long Curly Hair Or Straight Long Hair? STRAIGHT Rap Or Rock Music Scene? METAL Relationship Or Just Hooking Up With Him? RELATIONSHIP Movies Or A Dance? DANCE Horror Or Romantic Movie To Watch With Him? HORROR

How Do You Feel About Goth Guys? THEYRE NICE GUYS BUT IM NOT ATTRACTED TO THEIR STYLE Geeky Guys? SMART.. BUT NOT GEEKY Emo Guys? EMO IS DEAD Preppy Guys? NO THANK YOU Jocky Guys? NO Skaters? YES Gangster Guys? DEFINITELY NOT. What About Bi Guys? NAH Mop Top Or Corn Rows? MOP Glasses Or Not? DONT CARE. THEY LOOK CUTE OR SOME BOYS :) Polos Or Band Shirts? BAND

He Sang Your Favorite Song To You, But He Sucked And Messed It Up? THINK ITS ADORABLE He Played Dumb Stupid Jokes On You All The Time? TELL HIM TO STOP He Wrote A Song That You Thought Was About You, But Was About His Car? LAUGH He Came To School In Complete Drag? BE A LITTLE SCARED. MORE ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY GO TO SCHOOL THOUGH. His Guy Friends Mean More To Him Than You? I DONT KNOW. ID PREFER IT TO BE EVEN. He Cheated On You? NEVER TALK TO HIM AGAIN He Always Wanted To Be Around His Friends And Your Just A Tag Along? BREAK UP. He Started Speaking To You In A Different Language? THINK ITS SEXY He Started Out Sweet But Then Turned Bitter? BREAK UP

Do You Like Your Guys To Stand Straight Or Slouch? STRAIGHT Would It Matter To You If He Played World Of Warcraft? YES. Shy Guys Or Super Outgoing? IN BETWEEN, MORE TOWARDS SHY Looks Or Personality? BOTH
Do You Like Your Guys To Play Instruments? DRUMS

Black Or Blonde Hair? BLACK Green Or Brown Eyes? GREEN Spiked Hair In Back Straight In Front Or Just Messy? FIRST ONE Tucks His Shirt In Or Just Lets It Hang Out? LETS IT HANG Flip Flops Or Normal Shoes? NORMAL Looks Like His Mom Dressed Him Or Himself With His Own Style? HIS OWN STYLE Make-up Or Not? NOT Big Sunglasses Or Small Reflective Ones? I DONT KNOW

d.

nineteen.

Sun, 17 May 2009 06:44:38 GMT

please shoot me.

eighteen.

Fri, 15 May 2009 01:51:00 GMT

seventeen.

Thu, 14 May 2009 17:20:53 GMT

I don't understand. Why do some people have to be so hard to read? He has such strong opinions and values, just like me and people are always telling us this. But the second he says someone about one of them and I tell him agree, I get the feeling he just thinks I'm one of those people who will agree with anything to get in with people. But its not like that at all :(
How do I get him to get to know me better? Feels like I've tried everything.

I just want him to know I'm not like every other perth kid that "listens" to metal. God I dunno.

D.

sixteen.

Thu, 14 May 2009 10:13:39 GMT

I just realised how contradicting my last 2 posts were.

Oops.

d.

fifteen.

Tue, 12 May 2009 18:53:01 GMT

Is it wrong to have a crush while being in a relationship?
Well i dont know if its a crush.. Someone who i so much respect for, and am attracted to and sometimes i dream about him.
I feel horrible but should i? Its not like im going to pursue him. Hes a friend.
But i cant even begin to describe how much respect i have for him. Hes not like any other guy. So admirable.

Thoughts please anyone??

d.

fourteen.

Tue, 12 May 2009 14:29:38 GMT

This is one for the boys....

Is it true that all guys fantasize about other girls while having sex with their girlfriends/wives etc. ??

If so, WTF. and im becoming a lesbian.

D.

ps. i was wrong about the gig. BMTH impressed, as did the crowd. Except a few dickheads starting on my friends for no reason in the circle.
And people drinking too much etc.. good night all up.
Its official. Anyone who loves Ollie Sykes, is mentally challenged.

thirteen.

Mon, 11 May 2009 03:11:10 GMT

Just like the next person, i love Twilight.
But i just cant grasp one concept.

Although Edward is now and forever in the body of a 17 year old, hes what, 700 years old?
How is he still interested in 17 year old girls??!?!
Pedo or what?

I guess his mind must have just stopped growing too?
I dont know.

But heellooo Edward ;)

d.

twelve.

Mon, 11 May 2009 02:47:57 GMT

You just know its going to be a good gig when you know as soon as you get home, youre going to get on LJ and bitch about the scene kids ruining it.

Lets hope Ollie Sykes pisses on them.

Cant wait!

eleven.

Sat, 09 May 2009 17:04:15 GMT

Who was the last person to call you babe? J When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? ONLY USE A BASKET, SO YES If you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you? OVER AND OVER AGAIN Has someone ever sang a song to you? ON YOUTUBE IN FACT Do you play Sudoku? I DO If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive? I DONT THINK SO Have you danced in the rain? I HAVE Would you consider yourself a jock/prep/goth/emo/gangster? I AM ME Ever been to the beach? OF COARSE Do you like cheese? I DO Have you ever been to the emergency room? NOT FOR MYSELF Do you like hot or cold weather more? COLD How many different kinds of meat have you eaten? PIG AND CHICKEN AND FISH Do you pass gas and blame it on others? I DO NOT Do you like winter? YES Have you wiped a booger under your desk? NOT THAT I RECALL Do you have a secret crush? KIND OF If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you would do? GRAB MY COMPUTER. FOR ALL MY PHOTOS Would you get plastic surgery? IF I WAS BURNT AND NEEDED IT Who do you text the most? J What color are your eyes? GREEN How tall are you? AVERAGE Do you wish you had smaller feet? NO Has a rumor been spread about you? YES Have you written a secret admirer letter? NO Ever fallen for your best friend? HE BECAME MY BEST FRIEND AFTER I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM Age you lost your virginity? 16 Would you pretend to like something to please your partner? NO, I HATE HIS BEST FRIEND AND HE KNOWS IT Favorite Ex? I DONT KNOW Are you insecure about your weight? NO Ever had a sexual fantasy? NOT REALLY Would you rather give or recieve? DEPENDS WHAT I WOULD BE GIVING OR RECIEVING Do you prefer to sleep or eat? SLEEP Do you look like your mom or dad? NEITHER How long does it take you in the shower? 5-15 MINUTES DEPENDING IF I NEED TO WASH MY HAIR OR SHAVE Do you watch reality tv? NO What movie do you want to see right now? ROLL MODELS Do you illegally burn music? MAYBE..WHOS ASKING What did you do for New Years Eve? PARTY Do you think The Grudge was crappy? NO I LIKED IT Last sporting event attended? AFL I THINK Have you been to an IMAX theater? YES Was your mom a cheerleader? NO Were you a planned pregnancy for your parents? I DONT THINK SO What is your middle name? THATS A SECRET. How old was your mom when she gave birth to you? IM NOT SURE How many hours of sleep do you get a night? NOT MANY Last time you had sex? FEW DAYS AGO What do you buy at the Movies? MOVIE TICKETS USUALLY Do you know how to play poker? NOPE Do you wear your seatbelt? ALWAYS What do you wear to sleep?? ANY SHIRT I CAN FIND AND UNDERWEAR Anything big ever happen in your town? LOTS Is your hair straight or curly? TODAY IT IS STRAIGHT Is your tongue pierced? IT IS NOT Do you like Liver and Onions? NO, NEITHER What is your favorite sushi? CHICKEN TERIYAKI Do you like funny or serious people better? BOTH Ever been to Hollywood? NOT YET Who is on your mind right now? HIM Any plans for tonight? NO, IM SO SAD Last party attended? MY OWN Do you hate chocolate? SOMETIMES, DEPENDING ON MY MOOD What do you and your parents fight about the most? WORK Are you a gullible person? NO Ever go to a theme or costume party? YES, LOTS If you could have any job what would it be? I STILL DONT KNOW Are you easy to get along with? DEPENDS WHO YOU ARE What is your favorite time of day? NIGHT Are you a generally happy person? MOST OF THE TIME.

D.

ten.

Fri, 08 May 2009 17:50:28 GMT

So after my birthday, ive come to realise that i can count the amount of friends that actually give a shit, on one hand.
Im sick of all this backstabbing and talking behind peoples backs. This aint high school people. Grow the fuck up.
The term "best friend" has lost all meaning to me. I have 4-5 friends who really care, and the rest of you are just people. Ill call you a friend again when you learn to give a shit.
"Best friends" who dont both to show to my birthday because theyre too tired from working all day, which is fair enough, but "Best friends" who get caught out lying. Who turned out went to another party that night. Just over it.

If im not worth your time, youre not worth mine.
Simple.

Rant over.
D.

nine.

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 07:15:23 GMT

On top of that,

what kind of boyfriend wont go to his own girlfriends BIRTHDAY for more than an hour because he hates going clubbing??!?!
ARGH!

eight.

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 07:13:01 GMT

Seriously, what kind of boyfriend puts his hatred for Perth nightclubs (because theyre not as good as Brisbane ones) ahead of his own girlfriends safety of not having to walk all the way down James St in Northbridge by herself??
ARGH!!
You have some nerv for getting angry at me for asking you to come to keep me safe.
Wtf.

I will be at Dorcia tonight if i make it there alive, will you?

D.

seven.

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 19:16:58 GMT

Lying in bed wide awake at 3 in the morning can't be good for you.
I can't stop thinking. I have a habit of thinking so much I send myself spiralling down a whirlpool of depression. I'm sick of trying to be this perfect person that everyone wants me to be.
I've only done one thing to better myself that has actually been for me and no one else, I can criticised for it everday.
My boyfriend wants the complete opposite, but I am so proud of myself for it. 2 weeks today it will be a year since I have
Touched alcohol. Is that not something to be proud of? I used to be this pathetic drunk who would go through a bottle of smirnoff every few nights.
I hate that. I never deny it or hide it though, no matter how ashamed I am. That is who I used to be and I like to think that I have grown and bettered myself.
I don't understand why people can't see it as a positive thing. My own boyfriend isn't even proud of me. I'm sure my parents are happy about it but all I want to here is
"I'm so proud of you". Just one time.
All I ever do for you people is try be this perfect person and then the one time I actually do something that I think is the right thing to do and is remotely responsible,
I am shunned.
I just don't understand.

I should probably keep trying to turn my brain off.
I have work tomorrow.

D. Coming at you via Blackberry.

six.

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 18:04:16 GMT

I dont really have anything to write about, but i dont like leaving my last post on a negative note, so i thought id post a more positive one.
Even though tonight im one of the least positive people you will take to. Wow that sounds terrible, im not that self-centered. I know I have it great.
Im just having one of those night I suppose.
So much stuff happened to tonight with my boyfriend and I and the only person i got to vent it out to was my best mate who also happens to be an ex-fling and spent the whole time telling me about how hes going to ask some girl out tomorrow.

Im not going to post what happened on here but I just need to babble shit because at the moment im hoping it will make me feel slightly better.
Hopefully someone out there cares.

Im kind of feeling anti-friends at the moment.
Because of the "ex fling" and also going out to Black Bettys tonight with the girls. All i want to do it dance. And they pike out! Epic fail.
It was good to see them though.

I dont really have anything else to say without getting nasty.
So if anyone is awake at the moment, please talk to me.
I wont vent to you, promise! :)

D.

five.

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 11:34:29 GMT

youre in my mind
youre everywhere

on the other hand,
WATE were amazing today. as always.
The best part was when all the little scene kids falling off the stage for the last song.
Shame it was only half a meter fall.

D.